Online Diary Entry One

I hate it when you give some one your trust and they use it against you.It's like they just don't care how much it hurts you.

To me, trust is a HUGE thing... And when I give some one trust, I expect them not to just throw it away.

The they will respect what I've given them.

And then...

Today. I was talking with a guy on AIM. And he wanted my number. I told him I didn't know him very well and I really didn't trust him with my number. So I told him he would have to EARN my trust.

He asked how. I said, I didn't know HOW he could earn my trust. It was up to him. And so I get to talking with him a lil'more. And it turns out he is letting some one talk FOR him. And for some reason that just made me REALLY mad.

I mean I don't know WHY it made me mad, it just did. I mean I guess it's the whole fact that he wanted my trust. But he used some one else, to talk to me. Which just sort of set me off. And I was having A GREAT DAY.

And he ruined it. I mean I don't know whether to blame HIM or just let it go. I don't exactly know how to handle this. And because trust is SOO big with me... I just don't know whether I should hold it against him or not.

I REALLY like this guy soo... Naturally part of me wants to let it go. But the other part of me wants to hold a grudge against him!!!

If you read this, could you please help me???

~>C.J